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Damn it feels good to be a gangster

I'm job hunting. There are times when it's easier to find a job when you have a job.  That's not always the case.  When you're interviewing in a different town than your current job, it's hard to get out and interview.  Worse still when you're hiding the fact that you're looking. So... I resigned.  After I turned down a job and let the partner know about it. But... silver linings.  I'm a fucking gangster. I'm a rockstar (I'll have the quesadilla, haha). I've got another interview scheduled.  An offer on the table.  And i'll be closer to home. That's big. I doubt myself a lot lately. I mean, I'm smart, but if you get told enough times that you're awful, lazy, and just plain not enough, you start to internalize it. So... It's refreshing to hear good. That's not to say my friends don't tell me that I'm great. And I appreciate them... they've been lifesavers.  It's just nice to hear it from o...

I'm bad.

I'm a bad blogger (never flipping writing) . I'm a bad mom (just ask the teen) . I'm a bad wife (again... ask the hubs) . I'm a bad novelist (my nano isn't going well see the first line above). I was given the option to resign this week.  It has me depressed and anxious and feeling like a total fucking failure. I'm interviewing too.  But i... I just... I'm just lost. I'm lost a lot lately. Have been for years.. Anybody wanna hold me and tell me to remember my Bob Marley? Every little thing... c.d.