Chaos Digitized

There's a lot going on in Chaos-topia of late. Unfortunately that's kept me from doing the things I should be doing for my own sanity. It's kept me from writing... from blogging... from sneaking out in the middle of the night to Netflix and chill with a tall dark and handsome... oh wait... that's not happening regardless. I'm not happy. This isn't new. I'm not ok.  Also the total yawn-fest, rehashed story you've heard from me 5,247 times. Everybody and their great granny Junie knows exactly how not-ok I am.  But, this is new. I'm starting to think about traveling. NOLA, Atlanta, Miami (pronounced Miam-ah, if you're a total douche-nozzle from there...), even thinking about Cancun and NYC. Just GOING. maybe even next weekend. or maybe nothing will change.  We'll see... CD

How can someone be triggered by such an innocuous question? Well, dear reader( s ), when it reminds you of just how different your life probably is on earth-19 {multiverse theory: a very basic summary- different choices make different universes where those choices play out}. On earth-19, you didn't take his shit when you found out he was having a kid with someone else. And you didn't have a "divorce or find a different job" ultimatum because you filed for divorce before the ultimatum ever got dropped. You started healing. You didn't have the emotional blackmail looming over your head because you didn't fall in love with a kid that you would never be "mom" to. On earth-19, you kicked ass. You finished your licensing requirements as a single mom. You didn't lose your entire family (over this, anyway - your family is still a bunch of fruitcakes on earth-19).  I told him that it was time to end this. He told her. I'm never seeing that b...