I'm not happy

Things are deteriorating at home.  I'm sure it's my fault for wanting more than I've ever taken for myself.

I want time to do what I love.  Nope, you get enough time between work and the commute... grumble grumble growl.

But you have football and a kid you had outside of the marriage.  I've had the football tickets since before I met you... grumble grumble growl.

But the kid? I've said I'm sorry for that in one of the TWO counseling appointments I went to... grumble grumble growl.

Speaking of counseling?  I've told you I don't like going there because it's too one- sided... grumble grumble growl.

So one sided in my favor is a no go,  but one sided in yours is perfectly cool?  (No response)  grumble grumble growl.

 I'm tired. I never get sleep... grumble grumble growl.

I need time alone for a little while. I had to keep the little guy during my normal nap time... grumble grumble growl.

I'm done.
I wanna go home. I miss being around people that love me.  Oh wait,  I gave them all up for him.

I'm just done.

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