Where is the joy?

I've been reading back over my blog posts lately and I've noticed an annoying truth. I'm an effing whiney bitch.

As much as the hand I've been dealt stinks, my attitude doesn't have to match that.  Nobody likes a Pollyanna- I'm not going to go that far, not by a long shot.

  • Seriously? you wanted a doll in the missionary barrel, but got crutches and you, annoying little rhymes-with-bunt, say "at least we don't need crutches"
  • yeah, 30 years after reading it, it is still stuck in my craw.
On a completely unrelated tangent,  having something stuck in your craw sounds like masturbation gone horribly wrong.


Alright.... so, good things in my life - without trying to perform fecal alchemy (turning shit into gold)

  • goddamn, I am a fucking master wordsmith! Just gimme my book deal and I'll be on my way. 
thankfulness.... take two - in no particular order:
Good friends.  You know who you are.

Music.  Always important in my life,  even when it's absent.

My kids.  Even when they stink so bad I want to refuse to feed them until they shower.  They're smart, funny, bright kids.

New socks.  We've touched on this before... I'm not a sock whore,  more of a sock-xotic dancer.  I'll show ya mah boobs and maybe rub up against you provocatively.

Audio books - total life saver.

that's all I have for tonight, but I'm going to try to be more positive.

anybody wanna help by rocking my world or stealing second?

I do miss being wanted.  But I'll survive this and come out the other side better and more appreciative for having been so long without.

my homework (feel free to play along)  :
Tell someone that makes a difference in my life that I'm thankful for them because.....

Hope you have a magical week,
C.D

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